JOAN ChuaWeiYing.
I'm sixteen
& Get older on every 18thjune.
I'm really fickle-minded and impulsive, I just do things without thought, sometimes it annoys me too. Well, I want to change. For starters, i need to stop being so rude.
As you can see I have decided to dedicate an ENTIRE BLOGPOST TO YOU! Isn't that sweet? I concluded that since you required so much more attention than PB, I'll give you WHAT YOU WANT. I'm very sure that you're adamant on not retrieving the remains of your brain and actually contemplating on the contents of your tags, which are entirely not meaningful, pathetic, and are utterly overwhelming with faecal matter. Apparently, you do not know how to FOLLOW AFTER PB, who gladly disappeared obediently without much fuss. THANKYOU PB! FOR YOUR KIND VANISHING! Anw Jason, since you're such a pussy, well well. This entire post is for you! I'm sure that you're very happy that I've given you such a wonderful post right here. Well, of course with no doubt. the topic would be MIND YOUR OWN BUSSINESS! aka MYOB.
I'm going to respond to your TAGS in detail. So please, sit tight and do not navigate away, JASON.
For starters, I'd like to inform you that I'm 16, and PB is of unknown age. We are going through puberty, and are not yet an adult. So obviously, I'M NOT MATURE YET RIGHT!?!??!?! Secondly, coming to MY blog( i had to cap the MY just in case you're one of those unlucky asians with super super slitty eyes, oh wait, i guess no one has it. Because only ultimate nosey parkers have them- SLITTY SLITTY EYES THIN LIKE HAIR STRANDS) and asking me to MYOB isn't right is it? You are being such a KPO KING yourself by even having the audicity to poke your nose into this bussiness, BUT EVEN ASKING US TO STAY OUT OF IT!! Please, its like eating beef and claiming that you're faithful to Guan Yin Ma. Furthermore, we can't really act like our age because there isn't a general AGE GUIDE BOOK that teaches us how to do so, and there isn't a law in Spore that demands us to. So unless you're an ultimate angel, SHUT THE FUCK UP. The third, like i mentioned, 16 year olds be coming parental has got NOTHING TO DO WITH US. NOTHING. NADA. NIL. ZILCH. Its not even advisable to do so! Unless you are a parent right now, being 16 and living in a miserable run down flat having 16 kids bouncing around the house, SHUT THE FUCK UP. You have no bloody right to ask us to grow up when you yourself is being such an infant coming here to tag all your MYOB nonsense when you're not even practicing what you preach. Maybe you dont understand the contents of this blogpost. Its okay. I strongly urge you to RETURN TO PRESCHOOL AND START YOUR EDUCATION ALL OVER AGAIN. Obviously you've not learnt anything in your whole of 16 years. Socialising and education has given you NOTHING. Oh yeah anyway, what was the "stop flattering" thing? My god you're really dumb.
And your next tag, "I mind your bussiness and you all mind yours too" WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU!? Whats with THE BUSSINESS THING!? Can't you just screw off obediently and eat your words??? Why're you such a stubborn mule ( A mule is a child of a horse and a donkey incase you're still bloody stupid) bent on asking everyone to MYOB!? I can only conclude that you have a pea brain ): Because..... You just fucking repeat that like, a hundred times because that's the only FRICKING CONTENT IN YOUR BRAIN.
By the way jason( notice that i didnt give you the caps for the J, you dont deserve it. You're under the level of a homo sapien) IT IS NOT ENTIRELY CHOONKUNS FAULT. Have you heard of the saying " IT TAKES TWO HANDS TO CLAP" ? Oh no, i dont think so. I forgot about your pea brain. Anw, WHICH PART OF THE ENTIRE INCIDENT IS CHOONKUN'S FAULT?? CAN YOU TELL ME!? If can't then again, SHUT THE FUCK UP. ANYWAY, IF IT WEREN'T FOR YOU, WE WOULDN'T HAVE TO STOP. BECAUSE YOU STARTED IT. So are you gonna apologise? Hmm? Or maybe you can bring THE FEMALE LEAD ACTRESS OVER HERE TO ASK EVERYONE TO STOP SINCE ITS ALSO HER FAULT. HOW ABOUT THAT?
SO UNLESS YOU HAVE ANYMORE INTELLECTUAL COMMENTS TO MAKE, SHUT THE FUCK UP. YOU KNOW YOUR PRESENCE IS A PAIN. AND LOSERS LIKE YOU ARE A WASTE OF MONEY IN OUR SOCIETY, BECAUSE YOU WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO CONTRIBUTE ENOUGH TO EVERYONE AS ALL YOU CAN DO IS TO REPEAT NONSENSICAL CRAP REPEATEDLY.
And lastly, you're an IT. Even Meng's sweet sucker(ITS A DOG) is a him. Don't you feel so mediocre? Just drown yourself in the toilet bowl. Yes, there isn't even enough water. But you're dumb enough to die in THAT. AND FUCK YOU! For wasting my precious time when i could have spent it watching We Got Married. FYHHTTM!
HERE'S A GREAT BIG THANK YOU TO MY BRILLIANT FRIENDS, WHO'RE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME TO HELP ME CLEAR PARASITIC BUGS LIKE jason! I DEEPLY APPRECIATE ALL YOUR TIME WASTED ON THE PIECE OF PLANKTON, THANK YOU DEARS! XOXOXO :D
THANK YOU TO - BRANDON CHOONKUN DALSTON DYDYFLOSS MENGLIANGSS XIAOTING! :D YOU'RE THE BEST I'LL EVER GET. :)
One good thing about having sweet buddies is that they get fantastic souveniers for you! Hahaha. Jingyi bought this really nice watch for m from taiwan! It's white with a couple in it. I really needed watch, but i didnt want to get one. But now I've got it! :D Thank you Jingyi dear! :D
And thank you Choonkun! haha. Thank you for reading the whole post up till after Dals's concert! Faithful loyal and patient! :) Well, he bought me this really pink sweet glitter nail polish from japan! I'm using it now heh heh heh. I've been searching high and low for a nail polish like this (really! ask jingyi) But they were either to expensive or to fugly. So I just waited till i found the right one... Tada~! Choonkun bought this for me from Japan! Happy happy thank you so much! :D
Sigh, so guilty for staying in Singapore all the time and not being able to get stuff for you guys. Thank you for remembering me when you should be busy getting stuff for yourselves and having fun. Thank you! xoxoxoxoxo :D
FOR LITTLE MISS SELFISH Because choonkun deserves better than you, and maybe you're just being a sick bitch for hogging him for more than a year. With all the lies and rotten nonsense, you should go to hell. You could say that he sucked, but you're not much of a looker yourself. You're just lucky you found another beast to hog. For all the presents that he got you, all the smses, the time, the money, the love, they were all wasted. You have no idea that other girls would be begging to take your place, but no. Like a wastrel you wasted it all. Well, at least he's a free man now! He can ogle every pretty lady in sight on the streets, flirt will all the xiao mei meis(LOL), chat up girls because he's not TIED DOWN BY AN INSENSITIVE BITCH LIKE YOU ANYMORE.
Choonkun! All the best in your future! I really hope that you'll meet the right one who'll do you justice, please dont get shit in your eyes again and waste yourself on someone so sinful. Please, or I'll make sure you return home with one leg.
Woke up really late today at 4, slept at like 6 yesterday. I'm watching BOF all over again. I dont know why, but I just dont want to get over it so soon so i'm jumping into it again. Haha. Well, didnt meet clique today. Today was strange and quick, and its 5 am already. Anyway, Popo they all dropped by, and i took some really cute photos with and of the kids. Missed them so much. Cuddly little lumps of flesh. Anyway we went out for dinner at Buangkok area, and Kong Kong specially ordered the mushroom dish i really liked. So sweet of him :) I dont know when i can go eat Popo's mushrooms, she cooks it really well with abalone, ah well. I made do with the ones at Buangkok. Came home from dinner and sat here till now, but this doesn't feel like no-life. It feels more like peace. Peace from the noise, crying, hurting, shouting, screaming, teasing and hassles over what to wear. Its really nice to just sit here and do what want, and it's been eons since i last did so. So now I refuse to sleep so early, otherwise this feelings gonna go away.
And all you idiots ask me to update, i did and all go holidays and dissapear ): so bad.
And Choonkun! haha he's in Japan now and he got me a gift. Heh heh heh. He's a true friend, he never fails to get me a souvenier. I can count so many which he bought for me. Socks from Korea, this pen key chain from Hongkong? And now a new present from Japan! Too bad i dont go overseas often. :/ Its okay choonkun, I'll go get something for you from Sentosa! :) Lol.
Today is the day i opened up my heart, pulled you out and ventured out to see how you've been doing. I read on and on, contemplated. With every word i saw, did i seeth in anger? I didnt. I smiled and remember those times we shared. I started to wonder, to ponder. It trespassed my mind, i didnt want it to. But it doesnt matter. Because I wont allow it. You'll just join the ones who didn't make it to my future. Why? That's simply because if i really needed you for my survival, I'd be dead long ago. But no, I'm fine.
Maybe, just maybe, only if you grovel on broken glass and beg on your knees. I could be wrong, yes, but i just can't find it in my heart to look at you.
Sunday, November 22, 2009 - 1:01 AM
God it took me three attempts to remember my password to get to where I am now.
Anyway, 460th post, Hibernation ends here! :)
Sorry to make everyone wait so long. But really, I swear my computer was being a bitch, and motivation went away. So i really couldn't find the patience and heart to sit down and post. So many excuses right? Yeah, I know.
O LEVELS Well, it ended really quick. And the anticipation every night before every paper nearly killed me. I really couldn't sleep, i didnt dare to. And when i finally slept every night i was so tired for being worried the whole night that i couldn't get myself to crawl out of bed. Hell, but most of the time i was able to ply myself off it since it'd be the last time I would be revising it. English was horror. I didnt know what the fuck i was doing for my compo. Really, its just the worst piece of work i've ever put together in my whole life. But the rest was okay really. Better than the horror i anticipated it to be. I'm hope I do really well. Not gonna say anymore before I jinx it.
DAYS AFTER O LEVELS Pretty much living in a blur because i couldn't really feel the holidays. I didnt really let my hair down because days after cramming and mugging, where got so good! HOLIDAYS NOW!? But yeah it was actually. Everyday I'd suddenly wonder what to do next. Because there's nothing left to study. Nothing to do but play! Went shopping with Jingyi much of the time, spent bloody lot hell of money. Felt really guilty everyday, not because of the money but because i felt like i should've studied harder and am not supposed to have the privilege to enjoy now. But no point whining further, what's done's done. So I've just got to do a better job next time. Sigh. Days of not blogging is making me talk and comfort myself here. God. Well I've also had damn bloody fun with clique went to play volleyball and all. Like i said i've been living in ablur so i dont really remember what i've been doing. lol oh yeah! and shopping on prom. I blew alot of money on non-prom things also. But idk wheretf it went.
THE PROM Prom arrived really quickly, time flies. And on the day of prom i realised that i was actually missing alot of things like i didnt trim my brows-.- Went to my sister's friend's house, Germain Anne and she did my make up for me :D It was really exciting cus she really envisioned what she wanted for me. Thank you for doing my make up and making my eyes look bigger ;D
Anyway, guess what! It wasn't in the lousy tent but some Begonia Ballroom. I've never heard of it, but the place wasn't too bad. Just that the food was rather lousy and i didnt manage to get my own. I went to get it but the plates were gone! And i had to go back to my seat or th emcee will summon me upstage. I really didnt want that so i just fed of brandon's and jingyi's food. Prom was really fun on the photo taking part, many people whom I thought forgot about me actually didnt, and actually remembered me. Haha. I thought it was really nice to run about taking photos. But it somehow felt like seperation. After Prom Xiaoting MengLiang Shumei Joshua Brandon and I went to Macs to eat after a damn fucking long deliberation. I didnt really enjoy the food, i was too hyped to eat and the food couldn't go down. lol. Then we all cabbed home. So tired! Slept at 4am +++++
DALSTON'S CONCERT DAY! Slept really late, woke up really earlly at like 10 ++++. Was supposed to go to Ahma's house for lunch but when i was about to leave it was raining hippos and king kong's so i stayed at home. Then i rushed off to orchard for job interview. Omg i waited for the bus damn long andthere was this small flood at the bustop dirtied my heels damn bad. Sicko. I was so afraid to be late but thank god i reached there on time hohoho. I hate those heels. I was really dying on my way there. And i barely crawled my way back. Knn thank god i bought black mary janes it'll definitely feel like i'm stepping on clouds while i work. Haha.
Went to Dalston's concert after, I forgot to bring my ticket! I swear i didnt do it intentionally(who the fuck will) and i didnt even expect myself to be so absent minded. So my circle seat costed me $24 bucks. Lol. But its worth it, I didnt wait so long for the concert to stand outside the theatre. Lol. Enchanted and Micheal Jackson through years rocked, Enchanted was really nice! True love's kiss was like, the sun rising or a rainbow forming or something. It's just so wow i really can't find any words to describe it. Maybe just : WAH!" And Micheal Jackson through the years were really sweet, parts from Man in the Mirror, I'll Be There and Thriller. Well, saved the best for the last. :) Haha actually I expected We are the Children and Billie Jean or Beat it, but its not really possible cus Billie Jean and Beat It is actually made up of more like techno music. I didnt really hear Bush Dance cus my nose bled =.= perfect timing. Anw it was really awesome cus we were having fun being maniacs shouting and cheering. We even got ticked of by this lousy usher who tried to shut us up :" Excuse me this is a concert" Hell ya we know that, we paid for the effing tickets and seats, and being overly enthusiastic is not our right?! Well sad for you usher, no one goes :" GO USHERS!!!" so i guess you feel left out ): Its okay. You can go to the National Stadium for NDP and be an usher there, they get appreciated real good. Off we went to Just Acia after the concert, and the kids really enjoyed themselves. Jun Han was really cute, he wore this tigger shirt and he looked like a toddler. Lol. It was a long day too! Slept at 3 am +++ felt good to hit the sack.
SATURDAY Was a really shitty start of the day for me everyone was nagging at me to wake up. I was really tired and sister was so angry cus she could'nt get me out of bed. I'm sorry but i swear i was really beat. Anw today's outing with Ahyi was super screwed so we didnt go in the end. I wouldn't say that it was eventful, more of catastrophic with all the screaming and shouting and crying. Anw we're going out tmr for lunch so it doesnt matter. Went out with clique to get some stuff to prepare myself for work, i hope i dont get fired soon. lol. Watched "My March"? or something at Dalston's house. It was really funny and kinda sick but i had a good laugh after a long day. Okay this is getting really draggy. so boring right! I bet many stopped reading after DAL's concert. Idiots.
SUNDAY EARLY DAMN BLOODY EARLY MORNINGG I'm playing cafe world! And searching for a blogskin for me to change to. I really hope i get one i like soon.I dont even know if I'll really change it today cus i'll get damn bloody lazy. I've not even started to watch my dvds. My holidays are more packed than i thought. Well, I've updated my life! haha. I didnt expect myself to finish blogging about everything, but guess what! I DID. HAHA.
When life was hard, you were there to make it better. Now, life is harder, but you're not here anymore. Its just harder to manage and stay sane when you're not here to heal me, or be there. Maybe you thought you weren't important to me or that you can't be bothered to anymore. But believe me. I need you more than ever.
HIBERNATION. Not exactly true, but it pretty much sums up what i'll be doing next. I wont be coming online so often(not like i came online alot) but well, its gonna be far worse than now i guess. So stop telling me wtf is online and how nice things are because i wont get to see it. HAHA. Well, yuxiang made it a good point to leave a happy post here. Went to Changi beach ytd with buds and IT WAS SUPER FUN. (sorry for the vague vocabulary. But really. Fun sums it all up. It wasn't splendid cus it wasn't grand and the toilets stank like pee, and the salt water pierced my eyes. I cut my toe! So lame and small but its still an injury and hurts a teeny bit. Better than Eugene who stuck his palm on a sharp rock. Look like grated cheese haha!) Then we all had dinner at Just Acia, felt so gooooddddd and blissful to even have food in my stomach. Sick of Bibimbab i'm not eating that anymore. Yuck. I hope its not gonna be the last fun i'm ever gonna have till o levels. I dont want. Cus that's sad. Anw i shouldn't even be having fun but so what! Everyone sins. I got tanned. I didnt want to. But i came home like char siew yesterday. Thank god for my Nivea cream, otherwise my skin would be peeling or hurting like i grated my skin on purpose. School today sucked. I couldnt tear myself from my bed. Much less iron my uniform. I felt like just shooting myself so that i could lay in bed forever. But NOOOOOOOOOOO i didnt want to hear ah huanny calling my house phone so i just crawled to the bathroom to wash my face. And i just realised that i dont post funny rubbish anymore. Or mean things. Oh i dedicated one to raveena previously. Omg waste my time and blog post.
On a random note; - Leave the one who loves you for the one you love? Its wrong. ): - You said you wouldn't do it. But you're working on it and it kills me. - you promised not to drift. - Look what you've done. - I'm so tired. - I hate insecurity. - "screwed up life" & "dysfunctional family". Well, I never thought I'd hear these words right in my face and directed at me. But sad to say i did. The worst part is having to feel how much it hurts and cuts me deep, and not being to do anything about the pain, you inflicted.
I AM GONNA STUDY HARD SO GO AWAY AND STUDY TOO, WHAT'RE YOU DOING HERE WHEN YOU SHOULD BE STUDYING!? Toodles. See you all in mid-november. I'll fight my urge to blog. Everyday. Or i could just smash the computer screen. Save all the trouble and tempation, aite?
Anyway, you know the time 11:11 pm/am ? Well, I've seen it so many times. Day after day, one/twice a week. Most of the time before i sleep. Rumour has it that if you wish really hard for something(mostly related to love) When you see the time 11:11 pm/am it'll come true. I guess you're supposed to wish before it hops on to 11:12. I used to believe in it and hoped and wished, but its not done any good to me. So i guess its hocus-pocus. For all of you nut brains out there, stop wishing too. It lies. Time lies.
Wan an! Goodluck for everyone's O lvls! :)
- And thank you dears for tagging. I'll respond soon alright! After exams I promise. I'll go to cbox and read it all again. Love ya'll ^.^
HELLO, JUST BECAUSE WE ARE ACADEMICALLY WEAKER, DOES NOT GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO LOOK DOWN ON US. IT DOES NOT MEAN WE ARE STUPID! HAVE YOU EVER HEARD OF THE TERM STREET SMART? NO. WHY? BECAUSE YOUR FAT HEAD IS TOO OVERSTUFFED WITH TEXT BOOK CONTENTS AND MOCK VEGETERIAN FOOD TO EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE THAT TERM AM I NOT RIGHT? EVEN THOUGH WE'RE NOT AS SMART AS YOU, FUCKER, WE HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO WORK HARDER. WELL, YES I'M SAYING WORK HARDER BECAUSE IM' SURE THAT WE'RE NOT TRYING AS HARD AS YOU TO SCORE FANTASTIC GRADES! WE ARE A BUNCH OF LAZY PPL GETTING AROUND AVERAGE GRADES, BUT YOU, YOU ARE WORKING YOUR FUCKING FAT SHIT ASS OFF EVERYDAY JUST TO GET WHERE YOU ARE TODAY. ISN'T THAT SAD? I BET YOU DESPISE PPL WITH NATURAL BRAINS IN YOUR CLASS RIGHT? STOP LOOKING DOWN ON PPL. YES, WE'RE NOT SMARTER. BUT WE HAVE A LIFE. INSTEAD OF LIVING A FAT LIFE LIKE YOURS MUGGING AND EATING MORE FAT FOOD(SUPPOSEDLY VEGETARIAN) WHICH SHOULD BE MAKING YOU "LIVE A HEALTHER LIFE". NOOOOOO YOU'RE STILL AS FAT AS EVER. AND EXCUSE ME, GOING TO POLY DOESNT MAKE PPL DUMBER THAT THOSE OF JCs. IT DOESNT! SO UNLESS YOU CAN GET INTO RI THEN WONT YOU FUCKING SHUT THAT BIG HOLE IN YOUR FACE! OH, AND BY THE WAY. ALTHOUGH WE ARE NOT AS SMART, DID I MENTION THAT AT LEAST WE ARE HEALTHY ENOUGH TO STUDY LONGER, STUDY HARDER? UNLIKE YOU! SO FUCKING FAT EVEN IF YOU'RE BLOODY CLEVER, YOU'D MAKE IT TO NOWHERE YOU'D BE DROWNED BY YOUR OWN FUCKING FATS! IMAGINE THAT? YOU HAVE ENOUGH NUTRIENTS, IF WE GIVE UP YOUR LIFE, GOD KNOWS HOW MANY FUCKING THIRD WORLD KIDS WE CAN FEED!! YOU'RE SO FUCKING FAT THAT YOU'LL NEVER MAKE IT ANYWHERE BECAUSE YOU'LL BE TOO FUCKING FAT TO EVEN LIVE LET ALONE STUDY!!
I've gotta cool down man. Oh and let me add on, WHEN YOU FUCKING LIFT YOUR FOOT TO PLACE IT ON THE WEIGHING SCALE, MY PHONE NUMBER APPEARS.
EAT THAT FAT BITCH!
- 8:23 PM
Hello world! Its been eons since i last posted. Hahaha i'm sorry its just that life has been super stagnant, boring and i couldn't find an inch of motivation to post. :P Well, had a blast last sat! Stayed over at Dals's house with meng. Aaron left after dinner though. We cooked ( well mine was super horrid) and we ate and watched thirteen ghosts. Super sick. But the story plot was really nice! Haha. Anw we watched movies and did nonsense, we left the house in the middle of the night, bout 4? and went about to 7 eleven, climbing the fence in the middle of the road, and walking about. We even jumped into the painting carraige of some bangalas and took photos! Hahaha. What the heck right! But noooooo we were having fun while you, YES YOU! This fat pig who was sleeping at home while we were living life! Haha.
Well i've got two days MC with heather dear, both of us went to see the doc ytd morning. I HATE HOUGANG POLYCLINIC. Super inefficient can!? We spent like what!? about 5 hours of our life in that shithole!?! MY GOD WASTED MY TIME CAN!? Tsk. If not for the fact that I've got heather love i would've died or crawled home. We took so many pictures! hahaha. I slept at like 7 plus ytd and woke up today at eleven. talk about resting, i've got loads of it man. Anw I'm going off! Haha i'm not posting anymore. I'm gonna edit this blogskin i'm kinda sick of it. Toodles! :)
When you start on how miserable life is, think, about all the kids in the third world region. If you think you're miserable living in a one room flat, they have no home. If you think you're fucking poor and that you're unable to eat your favourite burger or chicken wings everyday, they have no rice. When you complain that your water tastes weird from being too old or stagnant, they drink muddy water. When you complain that your heater is spoilt and showering in cold water sucks, they bathe in swamps and rivers. Well, isn't life supposedly blissful now?
Hello dear blog. This week kinda sucked. I got back many results. Much of which were horrible. I'm not gonna blog on how I'm gonna study harder and how disappointed I am with myself. No. Because after every single exam, i do this and repeat this cycle over and over, but do I do anything? No. I just sit around and wallow when I should be going about and making a difference, putting in more effort. What's the point of giving up my life and time for you, when I should be mugging? Yes, the truth is you wont run away. And I know, I suck at balancing and prioritising. I know very fucking well what the fuck should be on the top of my to-do list now; studying. I know, clear as crystal. But why do i just not understand the importance and keep searching for you? Because in the end, it all boils down to ME. You wont be there to comfort me. You wont be there to cheer me on. You wont be there to share my joy. You wont be there FOR ME. I can say that I'll give everything up for you. I can say that my future holds no meaning to me without you. But do you love me enough? No. Enough to take care of me forever? It will never be enough. Because all that I'm willing to sacrifice, all the suffer i'm willing to endure in silence, all my tearless cries, soundless screams. It will all lead to nothing. Why? Because I will never tell you the truth. Unless I'm on the verge of death or am down with a terminal disease. And then again, I might not tell you. For all the pain and hurt I would cause? I dont think so. What now? It's all about ME again. Either way, I'll die alone. If i get lousy grades for my O lvls, who's gonna be affected? Me. Me alone. My results will never affect you. Because soon you'll be leaving me, just like them. And I'll have to fend for myself like the usual. So is it worth it to have all the fun and happiness and joy in the world, just to kill myself for the future? And the worst part of all is, its entirely my fault. I'm fully capable to make a difference, but I dont have a strong enough will power. I was telling Jingyi this afternoon. And she pointed out that I am just plain lazy. When you get it in the face, you really wonder, " what for?" You can say that I dont have to do this. But will you be there for me?
Because..... it all boils down to me, when I FAIL; I LOSE. & I DIE. Simple as ABC. This is reality. Its Prelim ONE. And I'm still getting shit grades? WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE? Well, I know the answer, that is: Throwing it into the pits when all the miserable people in the world are willing to die, just to live my not-so-perfect life.
