I had a really bad nightmare last night, I dreamt that I got super pregnant with two babies(one foetus older than the other) and I a toddler in tow and OMG I swear its one of the biggest nightmare in my life. I had no money and no job and no home, and I was running away from people who were trying to catch me, doing my best to protect both the unborn and born. I remember vividly saying to Xiaoting(in the dream) that being so heavily pregnant with a toddler in tow no one would want me or date me. Omg it was bloody sad, I didnt know the father and I didnt have a boyfriend in the dream. It really felt like the end to me. Like i should do something like dying. Then we were in this shopping mall and suddenly there was this really huge explosion, and glass panels shot up from te ground to block all escape routes, really stupid but i have no idea why. And the worst thing was i lost my toddler, and I was trying my best to lessen any impact or chemical that could hurt my unborn so I was trying my best to run far, quickly. This is a horrible dream where I'm desperately trying to save myself while thinking of dying at the same time. So sick I hope I never dream of something like that again. Feeling so helpless was really devastating I nearly cried in my dream. Sickening and the worst part was when i woke up from it I overslept! Tsk was supposed to meet Xiaoting. Thank god she was still at home, she didnt bother to call me. She wanted me to sleep so that I can lighten my dark circles. How sweet of her! What am i doing now!? I should go to sleep soon I'm really wasting her effort.

ANYWAYS^^ -> New year resolutionssssssssss
If I'm not wrong I've been doing this every year.
Whatever result I'll get for my O's, I'll just have to suck it up and move forward, and to work harder and STOP PROCRASTINATING. I need to tatoo that into my brain its a really bad habit to kick.
Also for my hair to grow longer, and to be more frugal. Cut down on vulgarities too. I have no idea why I'm so vulgar its really ugly, this trait has to go.
Anw i've got four more kg to lose, yay! And have longer hair. Top priority, to takecare of my hair. Got to use the hair massaging method gelene taught me.

Ah i'll miss everything so much i hate growing up! Time should stop now before I start ageing really bad and sagging. nono time should stop after I get married and have kids.
Tsk. Time does fly.